Part time Ninja

I have a million things I need to do today. I have two papers to start, homework to study, a zombie project to work on, multiple other art projects I want to start and finish, I need to go to the gym, finish my laundry, run errands, and several people to call. I know I need to get all this done.

I spent 2 hours this morning wandering around my house. I don’t even know where to start. Some days I feel so busy that when I start one thing all I can think about is the other thing I need to do, so I go and look at that, and then I think about something else I need to do and the vicious cycle continues. 

I decided I needed to clear my head and went downtown to check out Helly Hanson, as I have a credit there from a coat I returned. No luck. So I wandered over to The Root where I bought a cute dress. ....Spending money on things I don’t need is definitely not on my to do list. 

I should feel guilty about wasting time and not getting things done. But I don’t. Sometimes I need a break. And today I realized that the world really doesn’t care if I get my to-do list done or not. Only I do. So if it gets done a little later than I would have liked it’s ok. If I have to work a little harder tomorrow that’s ok too. 

It’s often said that this life is stressful. And of course that is true. However, who creates the stress? We tend to blame the world, but what if it we shouldn’t? What if it is true that we are our own worst enemies? What if we are just too demanding on ourselves? Today I thought of the phrase “you're only human”. I used to detest this saying. I thought it was an excuse for laziness. But today I realize it’s true. I’m not a superhero. I’m not a glorified being. And I’m not a ninja (at least not full time). I am just human. There is only so much I can do. 

When you start to feel overloaded maybe you need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and go buy a dress (unless your a dude, but hey if that’s what your into I’m not here to judge). Life is good, and the weather is wonderful.