I'm often harsh and unyielding. Ouch. Hurts to say. I guess I knew this about myself all along but I never really thought about it until I found out that one of my close friends described me this way. Ouch. I know she loves me and was not saying it to be malicious or cruel. Just plain simple truth.
I highly doubt that I was born with these two qualities. I doubt I displayed them as a young child. My conclusion is that the world hardens our hearts through it's trials and tough lessons....If you let it. I think I have let myself get away with a lot of "bad" behavior and blamed it on account of having a semi rough life. In the last week I have had my eyes opened. I stumbled across a video of a man in a third world country that had devoted his time and money to feeding the homeless in his community. Not just give them food, but hand feed them, bath them, shave them, hold them. My heart burst watching this man have such great love for those that receive none. Man my life is sooo good in comparison. That doesn't mean I can't feel sad or disappointed that I have had some tough trials. I am still allowed to feel the pain that I have been through. But it is also nice to know that I am grateful for the trials I have had in my life. I would take them over hunger any day. I am grateful for my tough love lessons that made me strong, wise-ish, and hopeful for something better. What a beautiful gift I have been given. My creator knew that I would not appreciate the beauty of life if I didn't understand the ugly of it. Words cannot describe the elation I feel to know that I am so loved.
Even after this, I can still be harsh and unyielding. I guess the first step is admittance. I'm aware, and I will be more diligent in my manner toward my fellow man. Thank you dear friend for the tough lesson that was much needed.
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